Okay fine you know me better than I know myself

Does God work this way? Please send me comments on what you think.

As I look back on this journey, I am in awe of how God works in our best interest and how He knows how to keep me interested, and he knows what is needed for me to continue this journey.

The story of how this ministry got started goes this way. Proactive, practical Cary started praying hard and meeting with people in the community to figure out what was next.   In August, I met with a respected career professor to explore my options.  As I told my professor about my passion for women, mentoring, spiritual formation, my professor opened my eyes to the ministry route. When I grumbled about support raising, she said "swallow it" and I did. This set me on path of becoming open-minded to support raising. God shifted my mind set to becoming okay with the dreaded support raising. She led me to an organization (which will remain nameless), that mentored men and women in the city of Denver. The organization focused on city life and bridging the gap between the church and the city. I met with this organization for 3 months straight and they were excited for me to join their team. The affirmed my giftings and my skills. As this process went on, the Lord did a lot in my heart. I developed a deeper passion for women's ministry, I reconciled a lot in my mind about support raising, and for the first time, I developed an excitement for my calling. I researched the 20s-30s something group and developed a big heart for my generation and living the gospel out through authentic relationships.

Everything seemed to align, then the snag happened...

 The organization dropped the ball. They called me to say they may be moving and that affected my position,  and they were not sure what was happening and they were sorry. Keep in mind this was a day before I was going home to support raise and I had meeting set up with about 6 people. God had prepared me for this phone call--the night before this "Snag" God gave me Isaiah 61 and proclaimed this chapter over me. The next morning at my  weekly prayer meeting, I feared something was going on with the organization and questioned my calling, but everyone there confirmed this is what God has called me to do. So when I got that phone call, I told them this is what God has me doing and I cannot reconcile it not working out, someone has given me a free office, people are excited. I have never been so bold (and maybe this is why they have not called me back) Despite my tears and frustration, I was overwhelmed with peace. I felt God telling me to keep going and so I did. I went home and continued to meet with people, talking about my passions, what I see, and what God is calling me to do. Despite not having an organization to do this through people responded, people wanted to support me, and people trusted in God's calling on my life. I was overwhelmed with joy, not one person told me I could not do it. I came back to Denver and my pastor offered to use the Church's non-profit status to be the umbrella for this ministry. It was that easy.

Now its 4 months later... and as I look back on this journey I realized God continues to give me enough information to persevere. This journey is not fun. God knows me so well that he knew I needed an organization, a structure to kick start this passion for women. God knew I needed an office, Isaiah 61 and a community to remain hopeful when the organization fell through, God knew I needed him to completely shut the door on the organization for me to take a step of faith with my church, God knew I needed people to commit to financially supporting me before I got back to Denver. God provided enough information to keep me going. And God continues to increase my faith, to give me glimmers of hope to keep me focused in this unknown time.

Currently, I am in Florida support raising and this trip is not exactly what I thought. I was nervous about what my time would look like, but God provided big time on Day 1 of my trip which has given me peace throughout the trip. On my first day of the trip, I had a sweet meeting with a pastor who is trying to get his church to support me and then my mom was at lunch with an old friend (who I have never met nor heard of) and she wrote me a personal check $500 because she believed in what I was doing. These victories on the first day I have helped me remain faithful this past week in the midst of not getting much financial affirmation from others. God does know me well, He  knew I needed confidence in the beginning to kept me going and today I got 2 new supporters!


Does God work this way? I believe if we become thankful in all circumstances you will see He does. This is how God relates to me because this is how I operate. He gives us me enough to keep going and nothing that happens is a mistake.