Now to him who is able to do immeasurable more than all we ask or imagine...Ephesians 3:20

This season of understanding God as a provider has been eye opening. I have realized that this is the first time I have had to fully rely on God. I really have to put aside my pride, my desire to be "independent", my fear of asking for money, and my idea of what having faith means.

I have been humbled. I have realized once again that I love control and literally God has brought me to a place of total dependence on Him. Two weeks ago I was really struggling with support raising, the fear of asking for help took over. I was running around town, filling my schedule with meaningless things to only realize I needed to only turn to Him. It was really that simple. As soon as I did that, people started returning my calls, sending in checks, and God puts names in my head to contact. All I had to do was abide Him. Surrender my fear. Admit that I am weak. I could only boast in Him because the only thing I did differently was pray specifically for the funds to come in.

I was reading "Funding My Ministry" by Scott Mortan and his word struck me. I am asking people to give vertically not horizontally. I was believing they were giving to me and not the kingdom...and that is why fear was running so rampant. This is not about me. It is about God. It always has been and it I need to deny myself daily. Give my budget over to him every morning.

God is aware of my needs, he is not oblivious and God is a God of unlimited resources.

Prayer
Lord...I ask you for my $30,000 budget. I ask that you grant me it, that you teach me patience and faith when in it. Help me to know you as  God the provider. Give me strength to live out this calling and provide people Lord that will make this possible. I boast only in you Lord.